hate & love

I hate & love
The feeling of
Unresolved, and unrefreshed
And un- re- un- re- un-
Of relentless
Uncompleted reason
From that
My heart is on the run

The past and future present
Are more
Forever stealing
Away my mind's center of believing
To nothing I've designed
With oh so fervent book learning

My heart is as she always was
And is and ever will be
My soul, she resorts
to chemical reactions
Of how she always thought
She can never be re-bought

My heart is who she is
She loves whoever she pleases
And even though I know
Much, so much better now
And so much more
I supposes--

You are what she wants
You're what she breathes
You are her lover
And that--forever

And I have no say in it
Even if I tend to hate it.