You might give
Everything you give
And nothing you take back
You give me anyway and all
For one reason or another
My imperfection is wide
And my inabilities and insecurity
Even Deeper

My heart makes no sense
But it is the only sense I have
My Life
My love
My word.

I love you
So imperfectly
And so completely
And my heart is full

All the beauty
And the dust
And the fodder
And the drunken rust

I'm sorry
My all
Is not all
Or even basic good
Or shifty soft love that means only surface
You've got the deepest and the lost and the shortest list and longest way

Me
You've got me
And my apologies.

Sometimes this universe
Can't let happiness be
And all I have in me
Is emptied
And then I'm turned up side down
And shaken
To make sure
Every inch of happiness is gone

You lose something
And then everyone around you
Gets it
Gets exactly what you wanted
And takes it
And
I'm left with nothing
But a dream of almost having.
That's a horrible dream
That's a nightmare